A New Life

The man of my dreams that I met via the online dating service finally got in touch...long enough to say it wasn't going to work out. Such hopes, such dreams dashed in the course of a few seconds.

What is the old saying? When you fall off the horse, get right back on. Easier said than done, but I am sending out the signals again, trying to cast my net wider. Hope springs eternal.

He was such a good distraction from school...

Speaking of school, I brought home a bag full of work and left it in the backseat of my car. The thought of grading papers right now makes me ill.

I have really let things go this year, more so than I ever thought I would or even could. Some days I feel like I'm fumbling around like a rookie. I can't seem to find anything. And my desk........it looks like an atomic bomb hit it. I have thrown away center work (Reading First requires it) because I am covered up with more papers than I will ever get to grade. I have laid aside papers and "to do" chores that had no definite deadlines, which in the past I would have jumped right on.

I just don't care as much as I used to. I figure if they need them bad enough, they'll give me a shout. I used to live in fear of those shouts. Now, not so much.

I'm not depressed. Modern chemistry has taken care of that. Just disappointed and very tired. I had a girls' night out on Friday, then an all day scrapbook crop on Saturday. I fell asleep last night watching TV and woke up in the same postion with the TV still on at 5 AM. I took a three hour nap after church today, and I still think I could go to bed right now!!!

My anti-aging quest continues. I had my first micropeel on Thursday. If you like heat, you should definitely try micropeels out. My face felt like it was on FIRE. I am flaking like crazy. I have brown patches of dead skin which I was repeatedly told not to pick, but how can anyone NOT pick it? It's just hanging there, begging to be ripped off. Now, where I was unable to resist the urge, I have red spots. I bet putting on make up for school tomorrow will be lots of fun. I've been lathering up with moisturizer all weekend, so hopefully I'll see some improvement by tomorrow morning. (My fingers are crossed anyway.)

I don't like Sunday nights, but I really hate Monday mornings. For those about to embark on another week of educating our nation's youth, I salute you!

Do You Have "The Teacher Frown Line?"

I went to the spa Friday after school and had my first experience with Botox. WOW is all I can say. I can see a difference and it has only been about 36 hours. Lines disappeared like magic. It is a subtle difference, but one that makes me feel more confident in my appearance.

I have had a deep line on the bridge of my nose, right between my eyes, for as long as I can remember. The doctor actually told me that it was a "school teacher thing" probably from years of frowning and scolding naughty boys and girls. Anyway, the line always made me look like I was angry. The good doctor filled it in with some juvaderm, along with using the botox on the area. It is so much better. Maybe now my nephew won't tell me to come "put my frown" on other children when he is angry with them!

I wonder if anyone will notice--again, it is a subtle difference. No one in my family has noticed or at least they haven't said anything. Monday might be interesting.

I had a choice today of going to school to get caught up or going to the movies. The old me would have gone to school, but instead I went to the movies. I saw "Step Brothers." I was hoping it would make me laugh so hard that I would fall out of my seat, but it didn't. It was average, at best. It was still better than going to school! I don't know when I'll ever catch up--maybe I won't.

By the way, my email dude didn't let me down after all--I got his latest message on Thursday. Maybe there's hope yet. He seems so nice, and we seem to have so much in common. I am trying not to "over expect." The possibilities, however, are exciting to think about!

Well, it is Saturday night and here I am blogging. Let's hope this will be one of my last Saturday nights home alone. I am so ready to experience all the great things that are out there waiting for me! Life is good!